I want to go to his house and break all his windows. I want to take everything that means anything to him, and curb stomp it into the ground. I want to punch him in the stomach a thousand times, until he finally hurts as much as I do, and when he does he will cry out and say “Little bee, I had no idea, I’m so, so sorry.”
And he will remember he loves me. He will will wrap his arms around me, we will cry together, and everything will be the same again.
I have felt this way. It does get better. It just takes time. Looking back on so long ago I think why did I even waste my time on that person.